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XI
Love’s Mourner.
’Tis men who say that through all hurt and pain
The woman’s love, wife’s, mother’s, still will hold,
And breathes the sweeter and will more unfold
For winds that tear it, and the sorrowful rain.
So in a thousand voices has the strain
Of this dear patient madness been retold,
That men call woman’s love. Ah! they are bold,
Naming for love that grief which does remain.
Love faints that looks on baseness face to face:
Love pardons all; but by the pardonings dies,
With a fresh wound of each pierced through the breast.
And there stand pityingly in Love’s void place
Kindness of household wont familiar‐wise,
And faith to Love—faith to our dead at rest.
XII
She has made me wayside posies: here they stand,
Bringing fresh memories of where they grew.
As new‐come travellers from a world we knew
Wake every while some image of their land,
So these whose buds our woodland breezes fanned
Bring to my room the meadow where they blew,
The brook‐side cliff, the elms where wood‐doves coo—
And every flower is dearer for her hand.
Oh blossoms of the paths she loves to tread,
Some grace of her is in all thoughts you bear:
For in my memories of your homes that were
The old sweet loneliness they kept is fled,
And would I think it back I find instead
A presence of my darling mingling there.
XIII
My darling scarce thinks music sweet save mine:
’Tis that she does but love me more than hear.
She’ll not believe my voice to stranger ear
Is merely measure to the note and line;
“Not so,” she says; “Thou hast a secret thine:
The others’ singing’s only rich, or clear,
But something in thy tones brings music near;
As though thy song could search me and divine.”
Oh voice of mine that in some day not far
Time, the strong creditor, will call his debt,
Will dull—and even to her—will rasp and mar,
Sing Time asleep because of her regret,
Be twice thy life the thing her fancies are,
Thou echo to the self she knows not yet.
CASERTA, April, 1882.
XIV
To love her as to‐day is so great bliss
I needs must think of morrows almost loth,
Morrows wherein the flower’s unclosing growth
Shall make my darling other than she is.
The breathing rose excels the bud I wis,
Yet bud that will be rose is sweet for both;
And by‐and‐by seems like some later troth
Named in the moment of a lover’s kiss.
Yes, I am jealous, as of one now strange
That shall instead of her possess my thought,
Of her own self made new by any change,
Of her to be by ripening morrows brought.
My rose of women under later skies!
Yet, ah! my child with the child’s trustful eyes!
CERNOBBIO.
XV
That some day Death who has us all for jest
Shall hide me in the dark and voiceless mould,
And him whose living hand has mine in hold,
Where loving comes not nor the looks that rest,
Shall make us nought where we are known the best,
Forgotten things that leave their track untold
As in the August night the sky’s dropped gold—
This seems no strangeness, but Death’s natural hest.
But looking on the dawn that is her face
To know she too is Death’s seems mis‐belief;
She should not find decay, but, as the sun
Moves mightier from the veil that hides his place,
Keep ceaseless radiance. Life is Death begun:
But Death and her! That’s strangeness passing grief.
XVI
She will not have it that my day wanes low,
Poor of the fire its drooping sun denies,
That on my brow the thin lines write good‐byes
Which soon may be read plain for all to know,
Telling that I have done with youth’s brave show;
Alas! and done with youth in heart and eyes,
With wonder and with far expectancies,
Save but to say “I knew such long ago.”
She will not have it. Loverlike to me,
She with her happy gaze finds all that’s best,
She sees this fair and that unfretted still,
And her own sunshine over all the rest:
So she half keeps me as she’d have me be,
And I forget to age, through her sweet will.
XVII
And how could I grow old while she’s so young?
Methinks her heart sets tune for mine to beat,
We are so near; her new thoughts, incomplete,
Find their shaped wording happen on my tongue;
Like bloom on last year’s winterings newly sprung
My youth upflowers with hers, and must repeat
Old joyaunces in me nigh obsolete.
Could I grow older while my child’s so young?
And there are tales how youthful blood instilled
Thawing frore Age’s veins gave life new course,
And quavering limbs and eyes made indolent
Grew freshly eager with beginning force:
She so breathes impulse. Were my years twice spent,
Not burdening Age, with her, could make me chilled.
XVIII
’Tis hard that the full summer of our round
Is but the turn where winter’s sign‐post’s writ;
That to have reached the best is leaving it;
That final loss bears date from having found.
So some proud vessel in a narrow sound
Sails at high water with the fair wind fit,
And lo! the ebb along the sandy spit,
Lower and lower till she jars, aground.
’Tis hard. We are young still but more content;
’Tis our ripe flush, the heyday of our prime;
We learn full breath, how rich of the air we are!
But suddenly we note a touch of time,
A little fleck that scarcely seems to mar;
And we know then that some time since youth went.
XIX
Life on the wane: yes, sudden that news breaks.
And yet I would ’twere suddenly and less soon;
Since no forewarning makes loss opportune.
And now I watch that slow advance Time makes:
Watch as, while silent flow spreads broad the lakes
Mid the land levels of a smooth lagoon,
One waiting, pitiful, on a tidal dune,
Aware too long before it overtakes.
Ah! there’s so quick a joy in hues and sun,
And will my eyes see dim? Will vacant sense
Forget the lark, the surges on the beach?
Shall I step wearily and wish ’twere done?
Well, if it be love will not too go hence,
Love will have new glad secrets yet to teach.
XX
There’s one I miss. A little questioning maid
That held my finger, trotting by my side,
And smiled out of her pleased eyes open wide,
Wondering and wiser at each word I said.
And I must help her frolics if she played,
And I must feel her trouble if she cried;
My lap was hers past right to be denied;
She did my bidding, but I more obeyed.
Dearer she is to‐day, dearer and more;
Closer to me, since sister womanhoods meet;
Yet, like poor mothers some long while bereft,
I dwell on toward ways, quaint memories left,
I miss the approaching sound of pit‐pat feet,
The eager baby voice outside my door.
Love’s Mourner.
’Tis men who say that through all hurt and pain
The woman’s love, wife’s, mother’s, still will hold,
And breathes the sweeter and will more unfold
For winds that tear it, and the sorrowful rain.
So in a thousand voices has the strain
Of this dear patient madness been retold,
That men call woman’s love. Ah! they are bold,
Naming for love that grief which does remain.
Love faints that looks on baseness face to face:
Love pardons all; but by the pardonings dies,
With a fresh wound of each pierced through the breast.
And there stand pityingly in Love’s void place
Kindness of household wont familiar‐wise,
And faith to Love—faith to our dead at rest.
XII
She has made me wayside posies: here they stand,
Bringing fresh memories of where they grew.
As new‐come travellers from a world we knew
Wake every while some image of their land,
So these whose buds our woodland breezes fanned
Bring to my room the meadow where they blew,
The brook‐side cliff, the elms where wood‐doves coo—
And every flower is dearer for her hand.
Oh blossoms of the paths she loves to tread,
Some grace of her is in all thoughts you bear:
For in my memories of your homes that were
The old sweet loneliness they kept is fled,
And would I think it back I find instead
A presence of my darling mingling there.
XIII
My darling scarce thinks music sweet save mine:
’Tis that she does but love me more than hear.
She’ll not believe my voice to stranger ear
Is merely measure to the note and line;
“Not so,” she says; “Thou hast a secret thine:
The others’ singing’s only rich, or clear,
But something in thy tones brings music near;
As though thy song could search me and divine.”
Oh voice of mine that in some day not far
Time, the strong creditor, will call his debt,
Will dull—and even to her—will rasp and mar,
Sing Time asleep because of her regret,
Be twice thy life the thing her fancies are,
Thou echo to the self she knows not yet.
CASERTA, April, 1882.
XIV
To love her as to‐day is so great bliss
I needs must think of morrows almost loth,
Morrows wherein the flower’s unclosing growth
Shall make my darling other than she is.
The breathing rose excels the bud I wis,
Yet bud that will be rose is sweet for both;
And by‐and‐by seems like some later troth
Named in the moment of a lover’s kiss.
Yes, I am jealous, as of one now strange
That shall instead of her possess my thought,
Of her own self made new by any change,
Of her to be by ripening morrows brought.
My rose of women under later skies!
Yet, ah! my child with the child’s trustful eyes!
CERNOBBIO.
XV
That some day Death who has us all for jest
Shall hide me in the dark and voiceless mould,
And him whose living hand has mine in hold,
Where loving comes not nor the looks that rest,
Shall make us nought where we are known the best,
Forgotten things that leave their track untold
As in the August night the sky’s dropped gold—
This seems no strangeness, but Death’s natural hest.
But looking on the dawn that is her face
To know she too is Death’s seems mis‐belief;
She should not find decay, but, as the sun
Moves mightier from the veil that hides his place,
Keep ceaseless radiance. Life is Death begun:
But Death and her! That’s strangeness passing grief.
XVI
She will not have it that my day wanes low,
Poor of the fire its drooping sun denies,
That on my brow the thin lines write good‐byes
Which soon may be read plain for all to know,
Telling that I have done with youth’s brave show;
Alas! and done with youth in heart and eyes,
With wonder and with far expectancies,
Save but to say “I knew such long ago.”
She will not have it. Loverlike to me,
She with her happy gaze finds all that’s best,
She sees this fair and that unfretted still,
And her own sunshine over all the rest:
So she half keeps me as she’d have me be,
And I forget to age, through her sweet will.
XVII
And how could I grow old while she’s so young?
Methinks her heart sets tune for mine to beat,
We are so near; her new thoughts, incomplete,
Find their shaped wording happen on my tongue;
Like bloom on last year’s winterings newly sprung
My youth upflowers with hers, and must repeat
Old joyaunces in me nigh obsolete.
Could I grow older while my child’s so young?
And there are tales how youthful blood instilled
Thawing frore Age’s veins gave life new course,
And quavering limbs and eyes made indolent
Grew freshly eager with beginning force:
She so breathes impulse. Were my years twice spent,
Not burdening Age, with her, could make me chilled.
XVIII
’Tis hard that the full summer of our round
Is but the turn where winter’s sign‐post’s writ;
That to have reached the best is leaving it;
That final loss bears date from having found.
So some proud vessel in a narrow sound
Sails at high water with the fair wind fit,
And lo! the ebb along the sandy spit,
Lower and lower till she jars, aground.
’Tis hard. We are young still but more content;
’Tis our ripe flush, the heyday of our prime;
We learn full breath, how rich of the air we are!
But suddenly we note a touch of time,
A little fleck that scarcely seems to mar;
And we know then that some time since youth went.
XIX
Life on the wane: yes, sudden that news breaks.
And yet I would ’twere suddenly and less soon;
Since no forewarning makes loss opportune.
And now I watch that slow advance Time makes:
Watch as, while silent flow spreads broad the lakes
Mid the land levels of a smooth lagoon,
One waiting, pitiful, on a tidal dune,
Aware too long before it overtakes.
Ah! there’s so quick a joy in hues and sun,
And will my eyes see dim? Will vacant sense
Forget the lark, the surges on the beach?
Shall I step wearily and wish ’twere done?
Well, if it be love will not too go hence,
Love will have new glad secrets yet to teach.
XX
There’s one I miss. A little questioning maid
That held my finger, trotting by my side,
And smiled out of her pleased eyes open wide,
Wondering and wiser at each word I said.
And I must help her frolics if she played,
And I must feel her trouble if she cried;
My lap was hers past right to be denied;
She did my bidding, but I more obeyed.
Dearer she is to‐day, dearer and more;
Closer to me, since sister womanhoods meet;
Yet, like poor mothers some long while bereft,
I dwell on toward ways, quaint memories left,
I miss the approaching sound of pit‐pat feet,
The eager baby voice outside my door.